I Want My Body Back!!

Bear with me while I complain a bit, but I'm letting my true feelings out.

I don't know if anyone has noticed, but I can't seem to make a comment about myself without using the word FAT! I think I probably drive my husband and everyone around me CRAZY. I hate seeing people that I haven't seen for a long time or old boyfriends because in my mind I know they are thinking, "She really let herself go, or, dang, she's gained a lot of weight."And everyone is probably thinking "If you don't like it, do something about it!" So, I am. I got a personal trainer. I started today. I was hesitant, because the money is making me choke, but I really need to make a change and I heard this lady is awesome. (Thanks Maryann) So anyway, I'm pretty sure it's going to kick my butt and I'm not going to be able to move very well for awhile because I am soooo out of shape. I did make it through my first day though, I'm sure I'll be feeling it's wrath tomorrow. I did do better than I expected. You know, like 3 sit ups instead of ZERO like I thought. I know you're think it, "WOW, 3 sit ups!" Hey, don't laugh. In my defense I did just have a baby not too long ago (not that I could've done better before). So, if I stick to it and work really hard, with some help of a trainer, I think I'm going to see some awesome results. I'm really excited to take charge of my body again and not just let the fat take over.

Spending a week in Logan and being around Nathan's skinny beautiful family is motivation enough to make me want to change the way I look. I don't want to be the fat one is the family anymore. And looking at pictures from my skinnier days is also a HUGE motivation to get my butt in gear. So...here's to reminicsing about skinnier days. And yes, for those that didn't know me before my married and post kids life, I haven't always been FAT!


Me and my bestest doing a sexy pose. These are just the slips that went under our dresses. We weren't really that skanky. I think this may be our senior year? Is that right Dez?
This seems to be our pose of choice. I came across alot of these. Hey, I think we thought we were sexy! Man, to have those legs again.

ME and my niece Rhonni. Also my Senior year.
Me and my other bestest, Stacey. I hope you don't mind Stacey. I used to hate this picture because I thought I looked so chubby, but if that was chubby, I'de love to look chubby again.

In Hawaii with Stacey's family. Here's to hoping! Ok, so maybe dreaming. I'm pretty sure I will never be a size 4 again without some major surgery and lipo, but I can always dream right?
My dating years with Nate. Nathan took this picture, it was in his old blue college house on the corner. Awwww, the memories. We had alot of good times in this house.
I guess I'm not the only one that has gained a few pounds! Look how skinny and young Nate looks. I fattened him up a bit. He's still hot though (and not fat). Just not as skinny as he used to be.=)

Wish me luck! And hopefully in next couple of months people will be able to see some noticable results. I'm ready to stop being embarrassed by the way I look.